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I am an experienced PvE Guild Wars player, Having been playing Guild Wars for almost three years. I had my first Guild Wars game title given to me on my 17th Birthday. After that day I have been fully addicted to Guild Wars. Not long after that I purchased the next game title, Factions, and quickly moved into its storyline with my Warrior, who was my only permanent character at that time. I enjoyed it so much I made more characters to expand my gaming experience. Time passed, and soon the third campaign came out, I purchased it without hesitation. I fell in love with Nightfall. Out of all three of the campaigns, it is my favorite by far. I founded my own Guild when I was still new to the game, but I never invited members. A while later I disbanded it to join another guild, and moved from there to others. I never got used to being in a large guild, and only felt comfortable as a lone player. After some of my Real Life friends started playing Guild Wars, I reinstated my Guild and we all joined. Now I have all three campaigns, Eye of the North, and the Bonus Mission Pack activated on my Account, and I am trying to push all ten of my PvE characters through all of them. Its a large task, to say the least, considering I don't have much time per day to play, and with my computer's unaccountable crash errors. But now with the new Z-quests, these tasks are becoming easier to reach towards. As of late, though, I have been branching out and doing other things. You can find me now on several other games as well as Guild Wars. If you just tell me who you are and where you know me from, Ill be more then happy to talk or play a game with you any time.
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October 8, 2009
Well, I've pretty much stopped playing Guild Wars entirely, not sure if Ill return or not. Been busy playing other games, work, and college. Still unhappily single, and no matter how much I try, nothing helps. Still feeling quite abandoned by her, even though I still talk to her often. She acts like nothing happened, and even tries to help me find a girl. Out of all the people in the world... Why does she have to care in that particular way? Cant she see that every single time she brings that subject up a knife stabs me in the heart again? I'm surprised I'm even alive after all the scars shes left in me. Don't feel like who I was anymore, like I'm unconsciously hiding myself from everything that would hurt me again. Best way to put it is I'm wearing a mask, everyone sees it, but no one tries to find out why, how I really feel, or tries to get me to be myself again. Family basically ignores me anymore, at most I say 4 or 5 sentences to them and that's it for the day. It just stinks, and I'm sick of it. Fates played me like a drum, letting me begin to make hopes for the future, then tears them away from me and leaves me empty again. If fate were a physical being, I'd do everything I could to kill them. I think myself and many others would be more then justified.
August 17, 2009
Started college today, it was pretty good. My first class is a computer literacy class, and the instructor is hilarious. Hes always popping jokes off in class like a stand up comedian. His will be my favorite class. That one starts at 9:30 on Mondays and Wednesdays. After that I have a college introductory course immediately after the previous one. Its not too bad, the teacher is fairly lenient and it will be interesting to say the least. I also have a friend from high school in there with me. This class is on Mondays and Wednesdays too. Later on on Monday night I take English Comp 1. That ones going to be a pain cause I hate English class and the 2 girls that were such witches to me during high school are there, one of them the key benefactor to my ex girlfriend breaking up with me. Its just going to be swell in there... </sarcasm>. My last class is on Thursday and is college algebra. That ones going to be fun >_<.
On another note I'm turning 20 in a little more then a week. Cant spend that birthday with the person I wish I could, but at least I have a few friends I can go see a movie or something with.
Lastly I'm still down about losing the woman I love (guess I should be saying loved now...). She told me she wants to stay friends, but she hasn't called me nor returned my own calls to her. I don't know anymore, its just a pain. She came to me and started the relationship, then she changed it to something more then just holding hands and a small kiss now and then. Then she says there's problems in our relationship, but wont talk to me so I can figure out first off what they are, and second how to fix them. Then she leaves me for another man, blaming it on "were not the same type of people" when no matter how I look at it I see were exactly the same. Now this.
Meh, Im just really confused about that anymore.
July 18, 2009
If home is where the heart is, then I must be homeless. Everything in my life has been shaken and torn, and my heart has been broken. The pieces scattered like fine sand amidst a raging storm...
Part of a journal page I wrote, needed a place to vent my emotions on. Cant place the rest of it here, its too personal. Its been very hard, losing the woman I love to someone else. Every time I'm alone I can think of nothing else but her. My mind is being assailed with so many things that I fear that I've almost lost everything that makes me who I am. Nothing I used to enjoy in life interests me anymore, and all of my friends that I thought I had from high school barely acknowledge my existence. I feel like an abandoned child, alone and afraid of everything in the world. I feel like a dead shell of what I once was, and that frightens me more then anything I can imagine.
July 11, 2009
Hey all, Made a blog spot here, so I have a place to speak my mind. Well I haven't been playing Guild Wars lately, due to me just being tired of trying to play and my computer crashing. Ive grown interested in other things for now, but I will probably go back once I get a new computer or once Guild Wars 2 arrives. Been going through a tough time at home, my girlfriend of 21/2 years left me about 2 weeks ago, and it hit me very hard. Its getting easier, but my dreams are my dread, for all I can think of when the night brings the mind to wander is of her and of all the times we shared. The dreams are fading, however, so I suppose that means my wounds are healing. Ill continue to check the Wiki daily, and Ill help anyone I can that needs it. Later.
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Hey, welcome to my userpage! If you see anything you like here, you are more than welcome to use it for your own userpage, just ask me the q' in my talk page.
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Name: Nathan Clark
Age: 19, 8-29-1989
Gender: Male
Talents: Drawing
Education: 1st year College
College Goal: To major in Game Design.
Favorite Games: Guildwars, Final Fantasy(s), Assassin's Creed
Consoles Owned: Ps3, Wii
Favorite Books: The Inheritance Cycle, Shannara books, Lord of the Rings
Favorite Animes: FMA, Avatar, Case Closed
Favorite Bands: Falling Up, The Send, High Flight Society
Favorite Animals: White Dragons, White Tigers
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As you look at me, you see me as I appear,
A normal 19-year old guy upon this world.
Just a simple man out among the hoards,
Wandering among them, and through them.
My face is veiled beneath my hood.
My frame beneath a concealing cloak.
People see me and wonder what I am about,
Think I may be trouble waiting in the peace.
They avoid me and shove me away,
Hopeing that their troubles will follow after.
But what they see is just the shell that holds me,
Their eyes incapable of piercing what they perceive.
Beneath this pale wrap lies the real me,
The unalterable truth to who I am within.
I am an Enigma, something beyond the mind,
A thing difficult to grasp and understand.
I am as a storm broiling deep within the void,
Beyond the prying eyes of the world.
My emotions moving and swirling around
Like a black twister upon a dieing plain.
The plain is overgrown with venomous thorned vines.
With poison dripping, waiting for the cut they need.
They seek forth for anything they can find,
Growing out among the razored stones like snakes,
Trying to bring pain upon those that are found.
But I am more than capable to pass through them.
I lash out against my pain with instincts,
Striking out at the encroaching forest of thorns.
My surrounding storm becoming my protection,
Tearing and thrashing a path through the thickets.
But just as a hurricane billows and rolls and swirls,
The calm is within the eye of the cataclysm.
This is my consciousness, silent and still.
Wrapped within the dark clouds of my emotions,
An ordered chaos within the vast abyssal plain.
Here I exist, moving and breathing,
Walking deep amidst these dark, rolling clouds.
But I am more than just a deprived wanderer,
I reach out to explore the worlds beyond the storm.
Outwards I stretch towards the borders,
My mind and senses seeking for what is beyond.
I feel with the elements, the limbs of this universe.
My senses react, and my mind comprehends,
And together they bend my elemental emotions.
With a bright, elegant flame I love,
Like an eternal fire within the darkness.
As an inferno I rage, burning and consuming,
Charring this pre-searing world I am upon.
As a grand boulderous rock I am strong,
My strength comes from the core of my being.
As the earth below I am patient and enduring,
Weathering the storms of others around me.
Like the north wind I am uncontainable,
These hands of society cannot hold me back.
As a slight breeze on a shoulder I am gentle,
Gently reaching out to comfort all those near to me.
As the water is forever unchanging, so am I,
No matter the assailment, I am still me.
But I am water, full of currents unseen,
My thoughts flowing beneath this mirror sea.
As lightning is quick, that I am as well,
Quick to voice my thought and opinion.
But the lightning must fade, though.
I will always listen, like the thunder after.
I am as skillfully forged and hammered steel,
My loyalty is unbending and unbreakable.
My anger is my sword, but my kindness is my shield,
Ill defend my friends with a warrior's vigor.
As a shadow I am, shaded and undefinable,
I may be unnoticed, but I am still there.
As a light I shine, standing out among the throng,
Making myself and my thoughts known.
This is my emotion, my storm around the calm,
My chaos in the void imbued within this shell.
I walk along, and my storm within follows.
Never shall it be elsewhere than where it is now.
I am but a weary traveler upon these paths,
Wandering along them in this life I walk.
I am the slumbering Dragon within its Hold,
The stalking Tiger in the moment of the hunt.
I am waiting and searching both at once,
Though for what exactly for I know not.
So fear not this swirling storm if you see it,
All you need to do is look within it,
When you do, the truth to what you see will appear.
It is only this traveler who is an Enigma.
'Welcome me as a friend, and I shall do the same.'
Ill give to you my sword and my shield,
The chaos around will not harm you,
But welcome and show you who I am within.
For a friend to me is by far more dear
Than many would think is worth the price.
This is me, and this is all there is to say.
Accept me as I am, or move from my path.
I will not change who I am for any other,
Save for those whom I befriend and love.
My path is made and laid out before me.
I will walk it to whatever end it brings.
And so I remain the traveler, the Enigma,
Waiting and searching within my storm.
This poem I wrote is to describe myself as I see myself. I think it is fitting. Manny people I know that I have shown this too also agree.
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